to die or not to

shit! tmr would be the day to die or not to. ITS D-DAY... lack of motivation to do any thing for it. and 我很久以前已经放弃了. been doing a lot of sai gang and i am tried. again and again, i tried to do my best. i did, but am i not just a tool to get things done?. yes. he told everyone i am efficient... so what? for all my effort, i feel like i am a fool... why did i choose to join in the first place? and why did i take up the position? 名字好听而已，其实全身都是屎。


As a whole, its so 虚伪. activities, fellowship, conventions, attending installations... its all for show only... everyone kept on saying cheers! we are sister clubs thus must attend and go socialize for contacts. i dare say its 100% fake. you go there to save your face, to prove you and your club's existance. bull shit for all protocol... EXTRA SAI KOR PIAH.


i hate pretending. pay to go for functions, act demure, hee hee haa haa, go home, to receive only a smile and 3 words: thanks for coming. read between the lines attendees, it actually meant " heng you come arh, if not i throw face"

pretentious, too pretentious. i am not going to contribute to something i am against tmr.

merry x-mas 2006

Hard gay desu fuuuuuuuu!!!! merry xmas!!!fuuuuuuu!!!! ok... tis opening is a bit off... but after mr ben cho told us that tis is what youngsters are watching, i started watching youtube out of curiosity for hard gay jap version. Fancy a lecturer telling me what youngsters are watching... tads contradicting, aint i a youngster??? erm... well, i have an old heart. ok... hard gay's quite entertaining though and the "fuuuu!!!" is so iconic...



ok... enough of hard gay... guess whats this??



if you think this is a xmas tree, you are absolutely RIGHT!!! this is a xmas tree @ vivo

swee bo? i was mesmerized by it. everyone around the big tree was taking photos like crazy. it really brings out the fact that its xmas eve.. who say that you have to go orchard during xmas to feel xmas???



xmas day itself, went to xmas gathering @ 2nd uncle's bangalow organized by all my middle age relatives. gosh! aint they havoc? its bbq cum potluck somemore.... too bad presents are only for little kids... ahem! i have a heart just like a kid k?! well, my bro got a golden piggy bank (xmas receive gift thats so CNY... erm... fusion is hot now issnt it? even though i din receive any gifts, but my bro's cookies and chocolates WILL BE MINE!!!! WHAHAHAHH!!!!





if i can wish for what i want for the next coming yr, i would wish for more bears to add to my collection, more chocolates to keep me happy, less flab (tads contradicting isnt it? chocolate VS flab... ok... cancel off the flab part...) and more $$$$... am i too materialistic?? i guess my wish are not too politicially correct



my proud collection of bears...arranged during spring cleaning and exclusive on xmas day!!!
kawaii ne fuuuuu!!!!

可能是这阵子有自己的时间，突然发现自己了解别人多过了解自己。。。总是能开导别人，但自己却不知道自己要的是什麽。。。 可能是因为当自己有心事时都不会主动和别人说。外表开心的我，真的开心吗？


不过，那件事的发生使我自己知道我已学会如何放下。自己尽力就好了！不拿别人和自己做比较真的会使自己比较开心。Benchmarking 只是会让自己更难过的 pile of shit。我知道身边的朋友都会有一些些的难过和失望。 每个人都有自己的想法，重要的是那个过程， 那个大家努力从零到把所有的任务完成的过程。


我真的认为我们做的很好。

live korean drama

i am able to watch or rather listen to korean drama live once in a while at the comfort of my home. i just listen to it 1hr ago. i have a korean neighbour living upstairs. the middle age couple will occassionally quarrel. once they do it its scary. there would bound to be glasses smashing. with the sound coming from above our heads, its scary. my mum jokingly wonder if our ceiling would be damaged.


then there will surely be agony cries from the wife. i could hear it clearly from the living room where i was sitting just now. i should go learn korean... maybe i can brush up my korean language by listening to her cries. better still, if i understand what she is saying, i can still counsel her using the air as a medium. but for now, i dont have the courage to do it as i cant possibly shout to her with limited vocab of "ah-neho-ha-sayo", "come-some-har-mi-da" , "kitchen-nai-you" and "buey?!"


and once in a while, sound of the bouncing of basketball could be heard during midnight.... (erm... isnt that scary??? sometimes, i will doubt if the neighbour living upstairs are really who they are... ok. maybe i watched too much horror movies le...)


i can only say this, jia jia you ben nan nian de jing

Now in sch killing time. all thanks to wanyi..... i am sadded :(


Now using qin's laptop to blog... y am i doing this when i can be @ home????


i hate wanyi so much.....


OMG!!! i just realized that wanyi is just beside me looking @ me and catching my spelling errors while i am typing!!!!


wanyi is an absolute bugger!!!!!

have been chionging projects for the past few days. have to sit in front of the com, din get enough sleep. i have a habit of sleeping early. so staying up till 3am is to me just like i had overcome mount everest. i actually composed a song using the You're Beautiful song. here it goes:


you're beautiful


you're beautiful


you're beautiful it's true


i saw your face, for 3 straight days


wo que kan ni kan dao tu (but i see u till i vomit)


i just DUN WAN be with you................



*ps: this song is specially dedicated to my com

imf pay cheque

after 2 mths of waiting, i got my imf pay cheque and cert.FINALLY!!! with $315 more of assets, it just feels wonderful. really miss imf duty days with my buddies... stationed at the airport arrival, departure,transit areas and immigration... whats money when you have all these experience??? (ok jiamin... stop kidding yourself... alright... money is just as important as the experience)


able to be part of the imf is one of the proudest moments of my life so far apart from participating in CO SYF. another up and coming major event for me will be SP open house in jan. why do i want to be part of the committee for the open house??? cuz i want to show ppl that i am proud of my school!!!! (ok ok.... i volunteered cuz i want the free SB tee, can???)


Watched Doha SEA games @ 12 midnite today live from channel 5... so proud to see contingent from Singapore marching with our national flag!!! I love singapore!!!! Thats why i stayed up late to watch SEA games live!!! ( alright... i stayed up late cuz i want to watch horror movie on channel U...)



BUT BELIEVE ME, I AM PROUD OF SINGAPORE, I AM PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (DOING THE KALLANG WAVE~~~~)