to die or not to

shit! tmr would be the day to die or not to. ITS D-DAY... lack of motivation to do any thing for it. and 我很久以前已经放弃了. been doing a lot of sai gang and i am tried. again and again, i tried to do my best. i did, but am i not just a tool to get things done?. yes. he told everyone i am efficient... so what? for all my effort, i feel like i am a fool... why did i choose to join in the first place? and why did i take up the position? 名字好听而已，其实全身都是屎。


As a whole, its so 虚伪. activities, fellowship, conventions, attending installations... its all for show only... everyone kept on saying cheers! we are sister clubs thus must attend and go socialize for contacts. i dare say its 100% fake. you go there to save your face, to prove you and your club's existance. bull shit for all protocol... EXTRA SAI KOR PIAH.


i hate pretending. pay to go for functions, act demure, hee hee haa haa, go home, to receive only a smile and 3 words: thanks for coming. read between the lines attendees, it actually meant " heng you come arh, if not i throw face"

pretentious, too pretentious. i am not going to contribute to something i am against tmr.