to die or not to

shit! tmr would be the day to die or not to. ITS D-DAY... lack of motivation to do any thing for it. and 我很久以前已经放弃了. been doing a lot of sai gang and i am tried. again and again, i tried to do my best. i did, but am i not just a tool to get things done?. yes. he told everyone i am efficient... so what? for all my effort, i feel like i am a fool... why did i choose to join in the first place? and why did i take up the position? 名字好听而已，其实全身都是屎。


As a whole, its so 虚伪. activities, fellowship, conventions, attending installations... its all for show only... everyone kept on saying cheers! we are sister clubs thus must attend and go socialize for contacts. i dare say its 100% fake. you go there to save your face, to prove you and your club's existance. bull shit for all protocol... EXTRA SAI KOR PIAH.


i hate pretending. pay to go for functions, act demure, hee hee haa haa, go home, to receive only a smile and 3 words: thanks for coming. read between the lines attendees, it actually meant " heng you come arh, if not i throw face"

pretentious, too pretentious. i am not going to contribute to something i am against tmr.

merry x-mas 2006

Hard gay desu fuuuuuuuu!!!! merry xmas!!!fuuuuuuu!!!! ok... tis opening is a bit off... but after mr ben cho told us that tis is what youngsters are watching, i started watching youtube out of curiosity for hard gay jap version. Fancy a lecturer telling me what youngsters are watching... tads contradicting, aint i a youngster??? erm... well, i have an old heart. ok... hard gay's quite entertaining though and the "fuuuu!!!" is so iconic...



ok... enough of hard gay... guess whats this??



if you think this is a xmas tree, you are absolutely RIGHT!!! this is a xmas tree @ vivo

swee bo? i was mesmerized by it. everyone around the big tree was taking photos like crazy. it really brings out the fact that its xmas eve.. who say that you have to go orchard during xmas to feel xmas???



xmas day itself, went to xmas gathering @ 2nd uncle's bangalow organized by all my middle age relatives. gosh! aint they havoc? its bbq cum potluck somemore.... too bad presents are only for little kids... ahem! i have a heart just like a kid k?! well, my bro got a golden piggy bank (xmas receive gift thats so CNY... erm... fusion is hot now issnt it? even though i din receive any gifts, but my bro's cookies and chocolates WILL BE MINE!!!! WHAHAHAHH!!!!





if i can wish for what i want for the next coming yr, i would wish for more bears to add to my collection, more chocolates to keep me happy, less flab (tads contradicting isnt it? chocolate VS flab... ok... cancel off the flab part...) and more $$$$... am i too materialistic?? i guess my wish are not too politicially correct



my proud collection of bears...arranged during spring cleaning and exclusive on xmas day!!!
kawaii ne fuuuuu!!!!

可能是这阵子有自己的时间，突然发现自己了解别人多过了解自己。。。总是能开导别人，但自己却不知道自己要的是什麽。。。 可能是因为当自己有心事时都不会主动和别人说。外表开心的我，真的开心吗？


不过，那件事的发生使我自己知道我已学会如何放下。自己尽力就好了！不拿别人和自己做比较真的会使自己比较开心。Benchmarking 只是会让自己更难过的 pile of shit。我知道身边的朋友都会有一些些的难过和失望。 每个人都有自己的想法，重要的是那个过程， 那个大家努力从零到把所有的任务完成的过程。


我真的认为我们做的很好。

live korean drama

i am able to watch or rather listen to korean drama live once in a while at the comfort of my home. i just listen to it 1hr ago. i have a korean neighbour living upstairs. the middle age couple will occassionally quarrel. once they do it its scary. there would bound to be glasses smashing. with the sound coming from above our heads, its scary. my mum jokingly wonder if our ceiling would be damaged.


then there will surely be agony cries from the wife. i could hear it clearly from the living room where i was sitting just now. i should go learn korean... maybe i can brush up my korean language by listening to her cries. better still, if i understand what she is saying, i can still counsel her using the air as a medium. but for now, i dont have the courage to do it as i cant possibly shout to her with limited vocab of "ah-neho-ha-sayo", "come-some-har-mi-da" , "kitchen-nai-you" and "buey?!"


and once in a while, sound of the bouncing of basketball could be heard during midnight.... (erm... isnt that scary??? sometimes, i will doubt if the neighbour living upstairs are really who they are... ok. maybe i watched too much horror movies le...)


i can only say this, jia jia you ben nan nian de jing

Now in sch killing time. all thanks to wanyi..... i am sadded :(


Now using qin's laptop to blog... y am i doing this when i can be @ home????


i hate wanyi so much.....


OMG!!! i just realized that wanyi is just beside me looking @ me and catching my spelling errors while i am typing!!!!


wanyi is an absolute bugger!!!!!

have been chionging projects for the past few days. have to sit in front of the com, din get enough sleep. i have a habit of sleeping early. so staying up till 3am is to me just like i had overcome mount everest. i actually composed a song using the You're Beautiful song. here it goes:


you're beautiful


you're beautiful


you're beautiful it's true


i saw your face, for 3 straight days


wo que kan ni kan dao tu (but i see u till i vomit)


i just DUN WAN be with you................



*ps: this song is specially dedicated to my com

imf pay cheque

after 2 mths of waiting, i got my imf pay cheque and cert.FINALLY!!! with $315 more of assets, it just feels wonderful. really miss imf duty days with my buddies... stationed at the airport arrival, departure,transit areas and immigration... whats money when you have all these experience??? (ok jiamin... stop kidding yourself... alright... money is just as important as the experience)


able to be part of the imf is one of the proudest moments of my life so far apart from participating in CO SYF. another up and coming major event for me will be SP open house in jan. why do i want to be part of the committee for the open house??? cuz i want to show ppl that i am proud of my school!!!! (ok ok.... i volunteered cuz i want the free SB tee, can???)


Watched Doha SEA games @ 12 midnite today live from channel 5... so proud to see contingent from Singapore marching with our national flag!!! I love singapore!!!! Thats why i stayed up late to watch SEA games live!!! ( alright... i stayed up late cuz i want to watch horror movie on channel U...)



BUT BELIEVE ME, I AM PROUD OF SINGAPORE, I AM PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (DOING THE KALLANG WAVE~~~~)

My name

Argh!!!! ppl don't know how to pronounce my name properly. jiaminG, jiaminG, jiaminG....... Why must add the G behind??? it sounds so guy... The horrible yy calls me jiaminG. Went kfc, no seat, so shared table with jeremy and gang. jeremy exclaimed " No!!!! i dun want to sit with JiaminG!!!". once jielong msg me and typed my name as jiaminG, i scolded him. now he knows that i am sensitive to that word and there was once i was in a packed lift with him. He said loudly" see lah jiaminG, you standing at the door, nobody dares to come in..."my friends and many strangers were in the lift... and guess that all in the lift knew my name le (i suddenly felt as if i was standing under a spotlight)...


Realised today that wenda also pronounced my name as jiaminG when she marked attendance. Then karl said" aiyo jiamin, next time when you hand up your report, you have to indicate that your name is jiamin-without-the-G"

summary

Too many things occuring. Different feelings everytime. No time to blog in detail. Want to take a little break from my projects. Summary:

• Many projects to do... stressed up
  
• Got fantastic grades for my FM... relieved
  
• Post Goong Princess Hours syndrome... empty
  
• Chatted with T at the train station... happy
  
• Saw huimin in the bus and chatted... happy
  
• Sitting in front of the com doing serious work... sian
  
• Wasting my precious time waiting for inspection of club house... pissed off
  
• Late nights chionging projects... tired
  
• Attending Ben cho and sheh's lesson.. happy + contented
  
• Good job done for our skit... glad
  
• Looking into the mirror first thing when I woke up... shocked + terrified
  
  Mood swing.. that's life... just hope that I won't go so extreme that my swing snap

~~A short blog saves a thousand seconds

finally, i have finished all my papers. Having papers everyday for the past 5 days killed 97% of my brain cells. The remaining 3% will diminish themselves once i finished typing this entry. After which i shall go RETARD



According to the OxMin dictionary, retard means (1) to sit infront of the goggle box, watch all the shows and all the ads you never had the chance to watch, usu in abnormal time slots. Those shows you may have seen it, but subconciously list it under "not nice" category due to somework not done yet would be watched once again. one may be really surprised why this show is showing for ages... its like a long time since you came across it. And watching all the low budget commercials that are banished into the non golden time slot. you may notice that the bust enhancer commercial you once came across it long time ago is still showing... at that abnormal time slot.


(2) to eat, eat and eat, tear open all the chips you have and munch till your jaws ache. When one starts doing this, this means that the paerson have not been enjoying food for a long long time. Eating, in the past, may mean filling up the stomache, so that one can start studying again.



Who says being retarded means being useless??? you may realise something or better still, find back something you had lost.


ok... there goes my 3% brain cells.

Walked past the two bus stops near jj and my house today. Saw two bus stops full of jj students. I assume they had just finished their A level paper. Saw quite a lot of familar faces. Among them was Wen long. Walked past him, wanted to stop to say hi. But he was too engrossed in discussing the paper with his friends. He was pointing up and down, imagining a piece of paper in the air, i guess. So i din disturb. Moreover, he was standing infront of all the other jj ppl. so if i stop and say something, i will be in the limelights with many pairs of jj eyes on me. But he looked confident. Good for him ^_^



This thought suddenly came to me. If i were a jj-ian, how will i fare my A? will i be able to get to a course that i want in Uni? or will i even get into Uni in the first place? Will i be happy as a jc student? Am i able to get a life? Am i able to appreciate what i had studied in my 2 years?



I have no answer to all these questions. But one thing for sure is that time really flies... 2 years has past. collection of O result seemed like yesterday when i came to think about it now...



To all friends in jc, congrats in overcoming another obstacles of life. No matter how u are feeling now after ur As, give a pat on ur back. Being a jc student is not easy

he horrifies me

I actually dun want to remember this... but saw him today in the food court... and his words on wed suddenly came haunting me... how does it feels to remember his words? Just imagine goosebumps appearing all over you...



horrifying Scene No1:

yy: eh class, i go through this section or not?
class: (nobody reply)
yy: as usual lah... jiamin, i go through already?
jm: huh? (i was daydreaming... he woke me up) yar... went through already

Horrifying cuz he said "as usual lah" and came to ask me... DIE, did i give him the perception that i am very attentive in class? in actual fact, i am not. If he is charming, i dun mind him asking me... but he is the direct OPPOSITE

horrifying scene No 2:
yy: you all will not see me for two weeks leh... happy?
class: (all arm-cio ) and showing happiness
yy: (turned to me) eh jiamin... i know you love me
jm: (eyes big big, mouth big big) ..............................

Why is this horrifying? No explaination need... it just is!

horrifying scene No 3:
yy: (asked lj and me) who has better grades?
jm: (as usual, not listening to him, so did not reply... just look @ him blankly)
lj: (pointed @ me)
yy: (looking @ me) so you better lah
jm: huh? no... i have very poor grades
yy: are you being humble or wad?
jm: ("DIE" was the only word in my head @ that time... i tried hard to outwit him) no... i think i will fail fm (my purpose was to indirectly tell him he duno how to teach)

After his class, i turned to qin :

jm: qin, i need to be affiliated to a religion
qin: ???
jm:i need to be cleansed spiritually

job for me!

I am sure i had enrolled in the correct gems. Know your temperament blends is so fun!!! Even the e-learning assignment is so interesting. Do a personality quiz to see what jobs are suitable for me. here's the result:


People with blue Interests like job responsibilities and occupations that involve creative, humanistic, thoughtful, and quiet types of activities. Blue Interests include abstracting, theorizing, designing, writing, reflecting, and originating, which often lead to work in editing, teaching, composing, inventing, mediating, clergy, and writing.


People with blue styles prefer to perform their job responsibilities in a manner that is supportive and helpful to others with a minimum of confrontation. They prefer to work where they have time to think things through before acting. People with blue style tend to be insightful, reflective, selectively sociable, creative, thoughtful, emotional, imaginative, and sensitive. Usually they thrive in a cutting edge, informally paced, future-oriented environment. You will want to choose a work environment or career path in which your style is welcomed and produces results.


Any potential manager/CEO want to employ me as your secretary? I am definitely suitable!!!
^_^

Inside me, there's a voice that tells me to say hi to you. but physically, i would always pretend i did not notice you. I know you are doing that too.Everyweek, you will always wait for your friends at one corner, while i am at the other, not far away from you. We used to be so close. we work, we slack, we go home,we play with kids while working, we tease each other... y cant we be how we used to be? We have so much in common and you are the one who told me a song from jay chou's album is nice. And true enough, it is one of my favourite... I once said that something is nice, and you go get it for me...


I told you i was sad cuz we canut work together anymore, but you told me we will still see each other in school...



It is so true that when the environment is not there anymore, everything changes...

complain

Not that i want to complain, but i just think this is so unfair to the others. Your indecisiveness held up everybody. u thought by just saying "anything lor", someone else will decide for u. but in actual fact u are the one who cant decide. when that "anything lor" was given to u, u actually gave the "huh~~~~? i dun wan...." Although i am not directly involved, but wo jiu shi kan bu shun yan. Good for u that the others actually allowed u to take wad u wanted. The final decision was decided by scissors-paper-stone somemore....


dun even think that u can get ur moon and ur stars in the outside world as wai mian feng da yu da. and not everyone is like them, so magnanimous.

Wads ur reason for jumping down?

Reading Joanne's blog sets me thinking. I wonder why the man will bear to suicide and just leave behind his poor wife and children? why did he give
s son money to buy chicken rice that day and died with $9 in his pocket? (a man was reading newpaper on train sometime ago and i secretly peeped at his papers that mentioned the $9 while on my way to school.)

My luan qi ba zao thoughts:

1. From a lot of cases, when one dies a terrible death, there will be many kind souls donating $. eg huang na's case. That man must have predicted this. He knew that his terrible death will definitely roll in $ to improve the living conditions of his family since we dont have many juicy cases in singapore. Did he calculate the opportunity costs of his selfish actions? Did he know that parental love is essential to his two sons? Did he ask his sons if they would prefer lotsa $, that even the govnt wants to kapo kapo to help the family plan the use of the $ ,or will they prefer having love from their father?
   
2. Judgement day: how will the govnt BELOW(literally) judge him? will HE send him to heaven cuz his small act of just jumping to the tracks actually helps his family to be able to pay their electricity bills and at the same time enable singaporeans to (again) bring out their compassionate side? OR will HE banish him to hell due to his selfishness and making the MRT tracks dirty?More man power is needed to clean up...
   
3. What about that person driving the MRT? Did he get the shock of his life? Did people even remember him? He was also a victim... He was shocked... traumatized by what was just infront of his windscreen. Most probably he quitted the next day and for all his life, not take MRT or trains. He needs to be compansated for being emotionally/psychologically hurt and for not mentally fit to continue in his job (if really he did quit).
   
4. Why $9 in his pocket? Most probably he did not realised that there were $9 in his pocket. Why? cos if he knew it,he would have given all his $ he had with him and ask his son to get Macdonalds instead, since he knew that would be his last chance to provide for his family.

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jogging experience

Went jogging at the school stadium on wed with peili. There was a group of guys sitting at the viewing area eating lunch. We were running past them when one of them shouted, " hey black and white! (the colour of our clothes) My friends ask you to run faster"

This was pl and my conversation after hearing what that guy shouted.


JM: hey pl, u learn wushu in sec sch right?
PL: yar
JM: if they come and disturb us, u have to protect me hor. But if you want me to protect you, i have to rush home to take my dizi as i was in chinese orchestra during my sec sch days.
PLJM: hahahaah


When we were making our way out, we passed by the i -forgot- if -it -was- a -basketball -court -or- a -soccer- court. Heard a guy whistling ah niu's song, that part where it goes like "wo zuo kan you kan shang kan sia kan...." I was like wht all the way till we got out of the stadium.


Why are guys so immature?

shopping trip and chocolates

The reminder from nellie made me realised that my blog has been rotting.... ok... so shall blog bout the shopping trip today.

Went shopping with janice and nellie. our gong zhu janice was so troubled and busy looking for a gift while nellie and i gave suggestions. realized that the 2 of us great minds think alike sia.... find the same things to be nice...

saw lots of nice clothes and bags but dont have the chong dong to buy. but the things that tempted me the most were the marks and spencer food... my god!!! so tempting, i am one who cannot resist food!!! so when i saw the white chocolate buttons, i was so so so happy!!! I LOVE WHITE CHOCOLATE!!!!! (don't ur heart just melt when u see white chocolate??? sorry...digress...) so i happily, joyfully took that packet of darling and to prey for other things to buy ( i shouldnt put "prey" cuz all the food are shouting "eat me!!! buy me!!... drawing my attention. can say is yan hua liao luan and look until i am tou hun nao zhang)

Then nellie excitedly recommended us dutch shortcake. so the 3 of us end up buying a pack of the shortcake each and i also bought my white chocolate!!!

i actually thought the shortcake we bought are soft like cakes, but it turns out to be biscuits. let me describe. It is a cookie, half of it dipped with chocolate...omg!!!! it just melts in your mouth (ok... you have to somehow bite it lah....) Even my mum who does not like chocolate said its nice.... whoa... i so proud of myself buying those shortcakes... erm... ok.. maybe should thank wu ya instead... hahaha....

*ps: up till now, i don't know why they call biscuits, cakes and why short and not tall ie tall cakes???

Taken @ the thankyou tea reception for IMF on 22sep : My fri CYA ppl... will miss the times we "westerners" took the 1hr train ride home after duty every fri night...where we crap, laugh and play poker cards on train...

My IMF morning shift ppl... will miss all the lame things we did @ our counter... esp all having duty @ T1...

**PS: These pics will be v important to me since IMF duties had ended and CYA will be ending soon...

U ppl made up a great part of my happy memories ; )

Did imf duty @ departure hall today. New location, new environment. Felt insecure at first. But it turns out that today was the most achievement-oriented day. Escort a korean ah pek (most prob a wealthly biz man-- from the way he dressed and from the point in time when he told me about his secretary) from t2, to t1 via skytrain as he told me he was taking ANA flight. Checked the screen, but cld not find his flight no, so checked with the info counter and realised his flight was a code sharing flight with SIA. so back to t2 again. he told me how he had left his ticket in the hotel and how his back ached due to all the walking. although he had to walk quite a distance, he was still gentle. he din even complain. Gd old man. although my legs wanted to give way from all the walking, i still had to be professional and smile. i am again, proud of myself.


Then a man from bangalore(1st time travelling) came to check in too early, thought the airline could provide accomodation. but canut. his flight is 02oo+ the next day. so he can onli check in @ 2300. He thought he had caused a lot of trouble for me, so he apologised. i can onli reply tad it was ok. He wanted to take a cab to look for his uncle since he had a long time to burn.he took out a really crumpled name card. he asked if i culd help him relate his destination to the taxi driver.he did not have any sing $. so had to change. he took out some us$ that culd change S$18. Duno if that was enough to take a cab, i asked the driver. luckily only bout $15 for the trip. Before the man got in, he thanked me by saying that i was so helpful. He even shook my hands. This made me wan to cry.


it is so great to know that someone truely appreciates ur help.

on my way back home from duty, i saw a guy who look like both jay chou and qiu ze. My god!!! so good looking. He had this you 1 yu 4 look on his face. tads wad made him attractive... i couldnt control myself to stop looking @ him... too bad he alighted @ je station...

** Still can't get him out of my head..... AHEM!!! **

China study Trip VS IMF VS Sleep

Just came back from china, and now will be busy with IMF duty till 23 sep. I am seriously in need of sleep. My plane touched down on 7 sep Fri 2345. on the next day 0800 had to rush to the airport again for the final imf briefing (i slept through the entire briefing. My friends said i opened my mouth big big till can throw in peanuts). Then spent one whole sunday sleeping again. Today, woke up @ 0430 just to catch the 1st train @ 0536 @ lakeside for my duty @ the airport @ 0700. I am so proud of myself cuz i am able to wake up.

1st duty day in the transit is so damn slack. I almost felt that my pay just flew down from the sky straight into my hands cuz i din see/receive any delegates at all. Just serve a few normal pax. Maybe i think that today, 9/11 is not a good date to travel esp for biz purposes.

Hope tad ming tian hui geng hao. Let me slack again!!!!!

Caption: all of us in hk disneyland


yo!! i am back from my china study tour!! before going there, i thought tad 12 days were a bit long. but after going there and trying out pigeon meat, smelly toufu, some shell-like dish, meeting new friends from biz school, shopping, for once feel that we were rich ppl (we were all wealthly ppl there cuz almost every nite we will go eat supper-- not bread nor noodles, but seafood, steamboat--- all da yu da rou every nite) and go disneyland, i feel 12 days aint long enuff....

Good memories: facinating industrial visits: honda,coca-cola,pearl river piano etc...

singing k in china

Able to buy cheap stuff

my 1st espirit pants for only $40 sin

able to know scor, yongda, weiye, wilson(aka zu xi) and know my gang(3 other crazy ppl) better

able to go into a casino for the first time (and macau sands somemore)

Not so gd memories: kana shouted @ by a stall owner cuz i slash e price to low (but proud of myself cuz i walked out immediately--- i have my pride even though i really like the shoes

Weiye's wallet kana stolen--- by a little girl somemore

weiye experienced creepy biz in a hotel. this caused 7 of us to sleep in 1 room... cuz we girls were scared

thumbs up for the study trip

Cease Operation

This blog will cease operation due to the above. Will be back after 7 Sep...

FRIDAY

its been a long time since i came home so early on a fri. usually, i would tell my mum that i would be back only on sat morning on a fri morning. why??? cuz i would only be back on sat 12AM due to my cya duty. Phew man! finally can rest le. although exams are just 2 weeks later, i am still so relax. why??? fri leh!!! come home so early, if study, how wasted!!! so wad did i do since i was back home @ bout 2.30???

1. read xian zai of zao bao: i just love to read xian zai,esp on a wed, wif wu ching kang's 2359 section + the pop corn section...
2. read 1/2 way of zao bao, fell asleep... so long nvr nap on a fri afternoon le (come to think of it, how can i not sleep for a whole fri during my duty days??? tads amazing!!!) ... the feeling just feels too gd to be true. although the weather is a bit warm, i still prefer to sleep than to drag my tired feet to the airport + 1/2 way closed eyes wif tears due to the fact that i always force myself not to yawn during duty infront of so many tourists.
3. tried the malay costumes that i borrowed form qin. erm... nice costumes!!! but i look wierd on them (get wad i mean? they are just too nice to be worn on me)
4. then went to the storeroom to get a box of chocolate... thought of trying the method of eating chocolate mentioned by the drama lan se xian ren zhang. When eating a chocolate, must put the whole chocolate into ur mouth, slowly use ur tongue and teeth to melt it, slowly swallow the melted chocolate. dun bite it.

in my case, when i slowly swallow the melted chocolate, the melted substance just flow into my mouth, one shot so sweet that i kana choked and cough.... had to run to the kitchen to gulp in 2 glasses of water. now then i understand why ppl say dramas are fictitious, will not happen in reality.

although i think i was stupid, this is a good fri.

time no enuff

so much things to do, so little time... hav to do projects, study for tests, exams that are round the corner, go for club activities and i mean clubS (with a "S") behind... Y my butt so itchy go join so many clubs? y dun i foresee that my hp n msn will have so many ppl's contacts that i dun even know who these ppl r?

incharge of my installation prog is driving me crazy. and to think i wuld b called Sergeant of Arms tad day... bloody basket... its sai gang lah...


look forward to the day when i can really enjoy my weekends... tad could only be in the academic yr of 07/08... siao liao... tad feels like eternity

So many things happened that makes me realised what kind of person i am @ different circumstances. Was chatting with tianlu, one of the 2 most chatted-wif pri sch clazmates.This is an extract of our conversation:


TL: Do u realised that in pri sch, we din tok a lot?
JM: come to think of it yes... y?
TL: cuz u will shot ur bullet eyes towards the guys when we r noisy
JM:OMG!!! i am tad fierce meh?
JM:i am may look fierce physically
JM:but i am actually full of warmth inside.... hahaha
TL: yar... i felt stupid to believe wads actually fake
TL: but u r friendly... the only pri sch ppl i know wad to chat r candy,shumei n u....
JM:tads cos u dun get to see my face and eyes mah.. hahahha
TL:Once i know the content of the book, the cover is no longer important to me.
JM:woah!!! so chim!!!


Am i tad fierce?

REBELLIOUS

THIS IS ONE THING THAT I HAD NVR DONE BEFORE... BUT I JUST SNAPPED INFRONT OF HER... AND I DID NOT FEEL REGRETFUL OF MY ACTIONS AT ALL... I AM FULL OF PRIDE FOR MYSELF AND MY ACTIONS...


The incorigible and impossible Ms C cut my grp off halfway during our presentation. She did not even in the least hell bit emphasize of the 20 min time limit. 2 had finished presenting, one was halfway through her slides and 2 did not get their chance to present their slides. Halfway through, she actually told us to wrap up our presentation. WAD THE HELLA BLOODY BASKET. It was so unfair to the other two who did not get their chance to present fully. They only got their chance to do a little Q&A based on their slides.


I actually snapped infront of her. I know my face was black and full of anger. I was nearest to the com during the Q&A. So i hit the keyboard as hard as i could to signal to her my buey-song-ness when looking through the slides for the Q&A ans. Ms C asked the floor to ask qns based on what was not covered. I duno what came over me. I said to the class "pls ask about the 4 bidding orgs. and what do they offer" in a stern manner. I really want leonard to get his part of the presentation marks. To think Ms C actually laughed and replied "haha... they even ask you what to ask them..." I was holding my fist when she said that... DAMN PISSED OFF


We were given a break after that. i rushed to the toilet to cool down. she was walking behind me. To show my anger again, went toilet, push the door hard infront of her. tears welled up. our effort wasted. No full presentation. When she came into the class for the next grp, i purposely shouted across to the next grp to stick to their 20min.


UNFAIR UNFAIR UNFAIR!!!! WHERE IS JUSTICE??? WHO SHE THINK SHE IS???? HOW WILL SHE FEEL IF WE JUST WALKED OUT OF THE LT WHEN TIME'S UP FOR THE NEXT CLASS AND SHE HAVNT END HER LESSON????


SHE CONDEMN ME AND I CONDEMN HER


*PS: to those who said it was their first time seeing my angry side, i will be rebellious when i am really angry.... Sorry if i had scared anyone of you...

CRAZY

Felt like eating ice jelly after lunch in school yesterday. After probing for some time, finally decided to buy it. Felt so heavenly and so contented when eating it. Felt so high... kept on smiling to myself. I think qin and wanyi must have feel that i am crazy and a sicko.... only one ice jelly and it could be so powerful to make me feel so happy. After eating, i even acted as the spokesperson for the ice jelly. My advertisement line:


Feeling stressed out?
Feeling unhappy?
Try XxX jelly
<>


Jiamin is definitely crazy.

pissed off

I was late today cos i overslept. When mummy woke me up @ 8, i dun feel the sense of urgency. I just slowly slack my way to school. Why did i overslept?

• comfy rainy, cool weather
• Loud thunder caused the alarm of a car downstairs to sound twice
• wanyi msg @ 5am AFTER WORLD CUP to tell me she's not coming for PTH class and i had to reply (erm... in case wanyi read this: not wanyi's fault lah!!! cuz after i sit up to msg, i canut sleep)
• Thought a lot will not go for PTH class after staying up for world cup... so no motivation to go to school.

In the end, i went, but later, thought that i should not have gone cuz Ms C pissed me off. The disorganised Ms C made all those who came (quite a lot) to finish up a proposal by next week. And she even SHOCKED us UP by saying that the IR project presentation is next week! Basket !!!! Havnt hand in report, how to present? no common sense.... I even heaved the S word in front of her (okok... i was not that brave...wangshuai was infront of me to block her view when i sweared)

Pissed of by Ms C, but so happy Italy won the world cup!!!! yeah!!! CK, told you liao, Italy WILL win... i go for Italian pasta, not French toast...

SENSITIVITY

It was once again confirmed by N that i am able to read one's mind. Recently, many of my surrounding friends are currently not in a very good mood... they are not in their usual form. I can actually sense it though i am not really close to some of them.


After CYA duty, N,L and me sat tgr. I sensed that something is wrong with N. so on the train, i actually asked what was wrong. N's reply to my question surprised me. N told me that she knew i had sensed something and even asked me to ask her questions as she was open. since she had offered me to ask, i ask lor, even though i din want to at first. I asked, and i actually guessed correctly what's on her mind. This caused L to be confused as she din understand what e 2 of us were talking about. N labelled L as a person who was not able to sense details and changes... of cos, we laughed a lot during our discussion due to L's ignorance and my hit-ons.


But being sensitive has it's pros and cons...sometimes, i just want to be like L, ignorant to my surrounding, so i wont be affected emotionally when trying to figure out what actually went wrong.

me really drama

Jiamin is getting so drama!!! Today when i was walking home, a police car drove past me and out came 2 police officers who walked infront of me. Thought was rather normal, then continued walking. The 2 officers approached 3 malay men and said in Malay "arper?" (I think my spelling is wrong...). Continued walking, past the nearby malay family service centre. The gate slowly opened. A malay uncle and a little boy stuck out their heads from behind the centre's gate and i overheard the boy said "i scared".


Then this thought suddenly stormed into me. Will those 3 men hold me hostage if the police were to catch them? I am the nearest to them at that moment. I dun want to be held at my neck. then i begun to walk faster. After walking past a playground, i felt safer. Why? BAD BAD ME ACTUALLY THOUGHT THAT IF THE 3 MEN WANTED SOME HOSTAGES THEY WOULD RATHER GRAB THOSE LITTLE INNOCENT KIDS THAN ME!


OMG!!! y do i have such sinful thoughts?........ and since when do i become so drama?....... or issit i am already so drama, but i din realise it till now??????

busy Sat

supported the school and my friends both @ Tangs and Robinson. Even though both sides sold only 1 item when i went there, it was a good start for both teams. that nite, koon cai even sms me to thanked me for my support. I wonder how many ppl he had to msg. guess they really appreciate those who came :)


Then went to watch She's the man with qiuyan,jo,huimin. quite funny... (esp the part with gender issue) no wonder sockmay labelled it as a must watch. managed to dissuade huimin from watching garfield cuz i dun want to waste my $ on tis type of show.


Finished my MR speak standard English observasion @ boonlay interchange with the help from huimin. I were entrusted with tis survey, but i were not that enthu. It was huimin who was so enthu all the way. Pulled me to stand near many diffrent groups of people chatting away to observe if they were using standard english. Typical huimin spirit :)


My apologies to meixiu for not able to attend her 21st bdae party.

just roaming around in webbies since i can on my com. came across this interesting yahoo segment "answer"... so i go check it out yo...


here's the million dollar question: Which episode of Sesame street did big bird died in?


Ans: In one episode when the birdie was shot to death to demostrate that guns are bad


MY GOD!!! i cannot imagine how shocked these infants and toddlers or even parents were when they viewed that! But i am v interested to view. Wonder what his last words were... and was there any funeral with a tomb that says, RIP below lies our best friend, big bird....

2 more days to sch reopen and i havnt finish my MR tutorial.planned to do today, but then jas jio qiuyan and me to jp then to marina square. bought 2 pairs of ear rings and a tee. (this time really BUDGET de.... y??? cuz my heart is still bleeding from the time i went jp wif jo,linda,foongmun___ spent $58 at one shot @ bum___ all thanks to jo, the one who brought me there... i shall not say more... it makes me cry...)


This time, the 3 items only cost me $14. i shou lian le hen duo. saw lots of pushcart with pretty ear rings. i told qiuyan to pull me away and give me 2 tight slap if i walked near any of the pushcarts


jas bought 8 hairclips @ $8 each, discounted to $40+.... i still canut believe it man! i dont think she can clip until so nice like the china girl helped her to do her hairdo.... tads impulsive sales.... i pity jas, hav long hair, caused a big hole to be burnt in her pocket....


i still love being on budget :)

went to IBMEC for my s2006 basic info and service training for the upcoming IMF testerday. quite interesting cos we were showed video on what is the correct way to serve... and the different scenes for negative service attitudes were funi...


we went through the so called psychology test, the paradigm. and learnt how to use both sides of our brains instead of the usual, female, their right, and men, their left... cool... and we even realised that men were created for their strength only (cos research has shown that female are more clever compared to men( our trainer, tommy said his wife is clever cos she had chosen him).... hahaha... tommy, who also taught psychology jokingly told us that our memory is stored @ e back of our brains... if one person hit on his hind brain, memory loss. so if hit on the sides??? more memory??? hahaha... funi man.


best part is the refreshments (have been eating and eating gd food there are even teabreaks and high tea...). Quite like hotel, not with disposable plates, and even the cups were mugs, with the name of the school printed. We were all given a cert (and only my group's trainer, tommy, gave ferrero rocher to all his students... the rest of the other teams in other rooms did not get it!!! wahaha)


Even though it was a 9 to 6 course, it was interesting and informative course !!! i enjoyed it!!!!

Good Quote

Good Quote


Came across a meaningful quote when i was watching tv... just what i need to motivate myself


Stress is a fact of live but don't let it be a part of live.


was wondering if i can be enlightened and become a Buddah if i just MIA myself and hide in a cave for 7 7 49 days by just reading meaningful quotes...

1:15am

1:15am


I don't believe i actually stayed up till this hour to do my report... sometimes i really want to bow down to my determination... but sometimes i can just give up easily... aiyoyo... y i so liddat??? i havnt finish my report, here i am blogging... but staying up @ this hr to do work is ald an achievement liao... so i am v happy with myself. ppl now stayed up, sacrificing their sleep for world cup, but i stayed up to do report... zhen shi tong ren bu tong ming. chatted with kee siong few days back he complaint that he had became a zombie liao (and still is)... aiyah... blame who? u choose to take this route urself wad...


yeah!!! i am so hapi!!! steven lim did not get into top 3 of yong bu yan bai !!! If mmay had watched the result show, maybe she go pong piah straight away... xue hua got third! yeah!!! good for her she really acted v well ! N my fav, rong ming, first positon... ole,ole,ole... guess he will be taking up the role of an ah beng in his first drama...


why 93.3 play this song now? ma yi yah hee... mai yi yah hoo... spoil the ambiance of such a wonderful night....

x-men: The last stand

X-Men: The last stand

Went jp to watch X-men with jo,linda,foongmun. under normal circumstances, unrealistic shows like this, i will not watch. it is just like wasting $$$ to watch power rangers live in action... wadever it is, just not my cup of milo. But i wanted to watch x-men cuz reviews said that it is one of the must-watch. so my movie marathon comprises of the trilogy-- The da vinci code, over the hedge and x-men.


X-men is fantastic even though i did not even watch any of the other 2 parts of the trilogy of x-men. good visuals, exciting storyline, fantastic costumes,humour is injected with success. I especially like the part where magneto moved the red bridge. IT WAS SO COOL!!! that was the part where my eyes open big big and sit up straight straight.


Some analysis of the characters:

• professor charles: botak, sit on the wheel chair, died in such a sad situation. a key icon, but the disapperance was too sudden. (ratings 3 stars)
• storm: nice hair, like her eyes where hailing for a storm, powerful but yet useless (ratings 2.5 stars)
• scott: have the looks, wear sunglasses all the way, when finally took off the sunglasses to reveal pretty eyes, time to die. duno wads he there for... (ratings... erm.... flunked completely)
• jean: reminds me of a character in desperate housewives. not only b'cos she looks like a character, her desperado actions is similar. like the scene where her hair seemed like burning. glad she is killed!!! her death saved the earth and the US president's head and face. iconic figure. (ratings 4 stars)
• fur ball: .... nth good and significant to say... look just like some bad guys in power rangers... shall not comment on him
• MAGNETO: GOOD POWERS, STRONG, ABLE TO MOVE A BRIDGE,ABLE TO MAKE ME SIT UP, EVEN THOUGH KANA VACCINE, STILL HAVE POWERS... (RATINGS 100 STARS) I LOVE HIM!!! HE IS EVEN BETTER THAN ALL SINGAPORE IDOLS,SUPERSTARS,SUPERBAND ADD TOGETHER!!!

*ps: mutation is scary, but yet fascinating. (if i can have powers to get full marks in all tests & exams w/o the need to write anything, i dun mind getting mutated. just dun give me ugly heads like teenage mutant ninja turtles)

orchard and my slacky evening

orchard and my slacky evening


Went orchard with linda,may,jo. was so enthu, cuz i thought i could buy a lot of things cuz i hav takashimaya vouchers. but din get to buy anything -- no handphone strap of the right length...still can remember what may said (i duno if she wanted me to hear it or she was just murmuring to herself) she said, "huh? like tad still not long enuff arh?" hahahah... thought of replying to her," my dear may, tis is TOO LONG liao"


so proud to buy a box of hello kitty cookie for $1.90 and a box of chocolate. when i reach home, mummy heard the sound of plastic bag while i opened the door. her voice was heard, saying wow! you bought something ( woah!!! you mai dong xi leh) then the first thing i said to my mummy and papa was," hey ppl!!! i went to orchard to buy cookies". papa said the cookies were nice. but mummy and i thought that it was it might be unsold goods selling cheap.


Was waiting for the traffic light and there was a troupe performing belly dance. i found it rather hilarious to performing just next to the busy crossroad. was thinking to myself that that it would be funi if someone had miss the green light just to watch the show. but in the end, i was the one missing the greenman, linda had to call me to cross the road.......
and nearly forgot the uncle who gave us the leaflet... (bu xi huan, bu yao luan diu hor... du shu hao... juo gong ye hao...) i shall not elaborate o tis. tis is rather sensitive......

slack my way through the whole evening at home after the orchard trip. planned to do my pth project but slept my way through... then blog... then will go watch kang xi lai le ( my fav entertainment)


*PS: may was forcing me to go to steven lim's blog atm when i was typing tis.... MYGOD!!! SHE'S TRYING TO SHAKE MY DETERMINATION.... "NO MEANS NO" WERE THE WORDS FOR HER.....

duty and world cup

Was on duty @ North counter when Rashidah told me that jielong saw felicia chin @ his south counter. she even smiled at him. Being a despotic man, he looked up and down for her in the transit even the nike shop, just to take a second look. Then he walkie us in a sad and disappointed voice, " i canut find her... i canut find her..." rashidah and me burst out laughing infront of so many pax. When we were back in our cya room, he told everyone. nobody believed him. then he turned to me and said,"jiamin, u must believe me.". My reply, " i believe you jielong... i believe that she smiled at you cuz she thinks that it was so funi to see a clown in transit...."


went back home in time for the world cup kickoff. watched with papa while eating hamburger. watched till halftime only, but i was so happy when costa rica scored their first goal :)

china trip

Jiamin, congrats. you are selected for the china trip !!! i thought i din have the chance to go cuz i was not asked to go for the interview. but to my surprise, i got selected!!! from the past 1 yr + in SP, this is a trip that most interest me. (another was the trip to dubai last yr... papa dun allow me to go... haiz... sadded) I can imagine how fun it is to go overseas with mrs chua, my fav fav tutor and some of my other friends (i think about 5 of them also got in) to macau, HK disneyland, guangzhou, etc... i look forward to aug 27 !!!


Another major event for me will be the IMF function in sep. even though i will have to wear blazer with thick paddings and skirt, have to wake up early, have to stand in the transit (hope is T2) for 8hrs, i dun mind. for the experience and $$$$... i will take up the challenge.


life will be exciting and fun @ the end of the yr. (exams not included)

people and my thoughts

okay... i know that i should not pin point on other ppl's weakness, but i really want to blog this... just to share my joy... (i am being sacastic... should i shed some crocodile's tears?)

• On my way to sch on bus no 157, i saw a bucktoothed guy sitting. i were the only one standing, so i can see very clearly. He was really neatly dressed... ahem... in an obiang style. he was reading a comic and SMILING to HIMSELF. then suddenly laugh out with a HEE...HEE...HEE... sound. all the while, i was trying not to laugh. my head was dropping lower and lower cuz i canut control myself. i really had to steal a laugh... what was funniest was that the ah mah sitting just opposite him looked at him and showed the SIAO DA BOH face.

• Saw a lady with a very big and prominent black mole on her forehead. She approached me in the airport while i was on duty, asking me to check the arrival time of a plane. I tried my very best not to move my eyes to her forehead. BUT I JUST COULDNT!!! imagine a 10-cent coin mole with hairsss sticking out. my god... it just look like some kind of spider (or issit a rambutan?). oh!!! i feel bad typing tis sentence...

• An angmoh lady came to my counter with a male companion. While the man was asking some question, the lady was all the while scratching her armpit... goodness... the man spent about 5min asking, the lady spent the EXACT timing to..... u know....

Results yr2 06

My result is out for my FMA CA. It is li shi xin di ( lowest in all my results --- so far--- :X i have to type "so far"... but i dun want my grades to drop any further. ) Ms Tan said i can do better . Yar, of course i want to do better man!!! My accounting grades had always been A. But now drop so badly... even though din fail, not the lowest score in class, but still v sad. I can still remember during my secondary school days, i would be v v v v happy, but now, in SP,scoring a score like tad is, to me, quite disasterous. Jiamin, pull up your socks, shoes, silppers,pants... aiyah.. wadever....


I think my grades for this term will be horrible... Lets pray hard...


This 2 mails really came at the wrong moment... Mr Tan sent me these mails, asking me to join the Microsoft competition thingy cuz i had an A for ITAB. Next, another mail, asking the top 20% in i duno SB or SP to join wadever research programme.... These 2 emails hit me v hard... With my results for this acad year to be so bad... join wad shit!!! See my results and see if u still want me in ur research or not lah....


Had to go help out in the meet the parent session later (okay... it is sai gang,no polo tee given, no $, need to wear lanyard, given onli CCA pts) Doing ushering and maybe guided tours. dun undrstand why parents still want to came and kpo... they should know their children are adults liao... they should learn to let go, not control everything. Or maybe they are there cuz tutors need to meet them cuz their children did really badly in their grades. So they had no choice but to come............................


Bless to me n my grades, the parents and those children (i mean spoilt babies... will they kana canning?)

CAs

Finally, the last 2 papers on fri then i am free!!! yohohoho!!! now stealing some time to relax a bit. I had CAs everyday for the past 4 days, and i am really tired: Nearly no oil liao. Finally i can give myself a break and blog. I hav so much to blog, but i dun feel like blogging @ tis moment cuz i wanna blog those funi entries when i am totally relaxed... so hope that i can remember all that is significant, funi and sad sad happenings that i saw and experienced (esp during my CYA duties)...


I still have 2 more papers on fri to piah... Here's an extract of the lyrics of the song BAD DAY by Daniel Powter which totally hit on how i am feeling now:


'Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

you sing a sad song just to turn it around


*PS: I not onli want to sing some sad songs, i oso want to sing that "fan nah fan nah fan dao bu neng hu xi" song

CCA

Why did i agree to take up this post? I am so frustrated and pissed off by everything. I had to call, i had to send sms, i had to send email. I had spent or rather waste so much of my time doing all the misc thingy, only to get a lousy, low response rate. Why must i do this when i should spend my time studying for the coming tests?

I am:

EXHAUSTED

PRESSURISED

SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING

shitty bad day

Wads wrong with my com? send for repair, nth's wrong... pls don't get corked up at this time... i need my com!!!!


got pissed up with the Airport shuttle uncle.... so damn rude. Doing cya duty during vesak day hol where i can rest was already bad enough. Still kana scolding by that uncle for nothing...


shitty bad day.

I really must blog this incident even though it happened last week. Went with my classmates to FC 4 to eat during peak period---lunch hour (This 2 words make me happy and angry at the same time). FC 4 was always v crowded at that period of time. So we all split up to all areas to target and chop tables. I stood at one corner and finally the group occupying the table nearest to me walked off. So i walked towards the table and lean behind a chair while signalling to my friends to come over. Then a guy who was standing on the other side rushed forward and sit on the chair i was leaning against. He shook his legs, fold his arms and acted like a big boss. What pissed me off was that he even tiao at me. He tiao at me, so i tiao back. I stood there tiao-ing at that guy while shouting inside me "DO YOU CALL YOURSELF A GENTLEMAN? YOU ARE NOT FIT TO BE CALLED A MAN!!! YOU ARE A BEAST!!! NO NOT FIT TO BE EVEN A BEAST!!! YOU ARE A PILE OF SHIT!!! SHIT SMELLS BETTER THAN YOU!!!!


After all my silent shouting, i walked away. I know the friends of that SHIT was watching me. So i purposely walked towards their direction (okay..... i have to walk in that direction lah). I gave them a brief tiao and walked away.


I did not regret walking away cuz it was not worth it to waste my time on unreasonable guys. But i truely regret not shouting out all that thoughts on the spot so that everyone in SP would know there was such an unreasonable guy. I also regretted not pointing my middle finger to him.

SP INTRANET AND E-LEARNING LINKS ARE LAGGING LIKE HELL. WHERE HAVE ALL OUR MISC FEE $$$ GO TO? WHY SPEND $$$ ON HAVING FANCIFUL FLASH AND END UP HAVING LAGGING WEBSITES? THE SCHOOL IS BUILDING A SHELTER WALKWAY FOR BUSINESS STUDENTS. BUT IT IS NOT LINKED TO DOVER MRT STATION. WHATS THE USE OF HAVING A HALF-BULILT-HALF UNLINKED SHELTER? WE CANNOT USE THE SHELTER WHEN IT RAINS. WADZZZ THE POINT??? THE NEW SCHOOL YEAR STARTS. SP SECURITY GUARDS HAVE AN AWKWARDLY LOCATED AND DESIGNED SPACE WITH AIRCON TO SIT AND SHAKE THEIR LEGS IN. IT IS EVEN FULLY TRANSPARENT FROM HEAD TO TOE. IMAGINE A HUGE GLASS TANK WITH SEALS IN THE ZOO. THE SP SECURITY GUARDS HAVE A NEW JOB PROSPECT --- TO MAINTAIN LAW AND ORDER IN SP AND ALSO TO BE ON DISPLAY (BUSKING) FOR THE EYES OF SP PPL WALKING TOWARDS DOVER MRT. (REMINDS ME OF STEPHANIE SUN'S GLASS HOUSE CHARITY PROJECT IN TAIWAN). IF I WERE THEM I WILL QUIT. CUZ CANNOT SLACK. AND I DON'T WANT MYSELF TO BE ON DISPLAY.


just don't understand why can't our $$$ cannot be used on more constructive projects.....

silent is the new loud

The most popular sentence now is "Silent Is The New Loud". But why not these? I hope these can come true

• slacking is the new hardworking
• tests and exams are the new rubbish
• sleeping is the new work
• slow in reaction is the new fast
• joking and fooling around is the new culture
• duno how to do tutorials is the new brilliant
• having pimples are the new IN

today's labour day. so my brain's not working.Tis explains this entry. I hope my weakness can turn into the IN-est thing...

TIS IS SAD

I just felt like crying when i heard tis. My bro was supposed to meet up wif a hong kong friend who was visiting his sch for 2 days. They were meeting due to a cultural x-change programme organised by rulang. On the first day, the hong kong friend was ill, so he did not visit the sch. On the second day, my bro had his oral exam. Thus all the hong kong students had to stay in the ava room till the oral exam was over. My bro wanted to check if his hk friend was here. but did not go cuz he listened to one of his clazmate who told my bro tad the hk friend would not be there. However, the hk friend was in the ava room waiting for my bro and he even passed a little present to one of my bro's clazmate who inturn pass it to my brother on behalf of the hk buddy.


The 2 of them did not have the fate to meet. Tis incident makes me realise tad a tiny step wrongly taken will have the consequences. It is a pity tad my bro did not manage to meet up with the hk buddy to personally pass him a merlion keychain and magnet specially bought and wrapped up nicely for him.


I just felt like crying when i saw the present from the buddy. they will nvr meet each other again...

money money money

OMG i finally got my long awaited pay. together wif GuGu, TG1 and mei nu. GuGu, u were too worked up liao. U hav to learn how to relax k? U actually let ur feelings control u.My god!!!


Tammy jie actually said she was happy to see us. Really meh? i dun believe. I am still v scared of her. I was like yeah!!! i am so happi to see my $$$. It was damn funi when we all open the envelopes to check the amounts. It was like opening our results slip upon our graduation. But it really felt like some kind of graduation ceremony where we were presented with our cert.But she was v nice to give us discounts on the bags in the shop. Too bad we din buy.


As a reward for myself, i bought myself a butterfly necklace (partly cuz i like it and partly kana psycho by e gals). Yes like wad GuGu said, i really do like accessories. will wear it to sch tmr.


Thanks for being part the precious memories.To juan, meixiu,huili and cailing, it is a pleasure to know all of u. U all look great in the pics we took today.

rojak!

I feel really tired. was doing FMA tut all day. But was stuck at the financial statements. i forgot how to do liao. So i slept my way through. i will always sleep when i want to give up on anything,hoping tad thing will be resolved when i wake up.But SADLY, i am only kidding on myself.I only want to escape from the reality.Had to go through e tut on mon. but until now havnt finish. i think i am really a slacker liao.gone case JM.


Dear x, tis is for u. i know u r now confused and depressed. but frankly speaking i think u shld not be so frickle-minded. u really got urself into a worse situation. u canut be wif ur frends. I know tis is not wad u expected and u hav been worrying about tis for e whole week. Hope everything will be well for u.


Chatted wif tianlu today. He really can be a philosopher. He enlightened me. Nvr knew he is so optimistic. And he actually forgot that he called me names in our pri sch days. He apologised and i gave him 50 da ban.


yeah!!! payday is tmr. Tammy jie called me while i was in the airport toilet. Luckily my phone din drop into the toilet bowl. will be meeting wif the other 3 of my working companions to go collect our long awaited $$$$. Lets tear down iora after we got our pay.Make their lives difficult for them. A pity that cailing canut come wif us.


*ps: tis is a piece of rojak entry

first day of new sch term.

Went to school as a second year students feeling sian and at the same time shiok. Sian cuz back to school again wif all the tutorials to complete and lectures to attend. But shiok as i am not a year 1 ald. There are freshies in the school. REAL FRESH... STRAIGHT FROM THE OVEN... saw them with the year 1 accounting lecture notes, i whispered to Qin "year 1s", and started to grin... ok i know its bad, but it just comes back to me (although im not in final year) like when i was in pri 6 and sec4.


Was really glad that our claz gathered together at dover to go to our respective classes even though we are in different options. Received msg from Qin and Karl the night before that we would be meeting as always at dover.I thought they are referring to those in tourism option only. But it turns out that it was the whole claz!!! I can proudly say that we are the only claz that meet up first. Then something got into my eyes and i took out a piece of tissue to wipe my eyes. Evonne thought i cried. And jokingly, i said yes cuz we are separating... Then after claz, we had 1 1/2 hr break. Gathered together at SP cafe again to rot. I REALLY LOVE MY CLAZ.


Had only 2 lessons. First was Hospitality and tourism. That tutor tried to be creative. Asked us to draw out something from her so-called treasure bag and relate that object to a tourism position . I kana a Vietnamese figurine. So i related that to an ambassador of Vietnam. But too bad, ans not really acceptable cuz Ms chan said it was not easy to be an ambassador. Then Ben turned and said it was not true, cuz we are ald the Changi youth Ambassador...


2nd lesson was Financial accounting. We were told to fill in our email add and hp no. Then heres the funi part... Here's wad she said true account that i remembered v clearly. "Anyone BLONG here? If u do, u can write down ur BLONG add so that i can read them. It turned out that she was trying to say BLOG. (fancy her not knowing how to pronounce BLOG and still want to read ppl's entries) We laughed at her and she laughed at herself too!!! whahahaha. Wad a funky teacher. Of course, no one gave her their BLONG add.Not me, cuz i think i will always complain and curse lecturers and tutors here. Suddenly, without notice, we had to do a quiz in pairs. It really blew me off and i realised that i had threw away all my year 1 accounting... i can only do 2 out of 11 qn...


The 2 tutors i met today seemed friendly to me. But will they show their true colours in a few weeks' time???

New term----- year 2

The new term starts tomorrow. Preparation of notes will begin today. So had to print out notes for biz law. So sucky. The lecturer and tutor are so cat. just a few pieces of paper right? won't cost much what!!!! Still need us to print ourselves. Chap 1 ald consists of 11 pgs. sickening. Biz law. Just by reading the module name, sian 1/2. Can imagine lectures after lectures of boring laws. I will definitely use my right-in-left-out and brain 1/2-ly shutdown(the screensaver mode) power during this lecture. Wad is making this matter worst is the lecturer whose name is so... erm.... so interesting. Ms?Mrs? Pansy Tan.Found her photo in SP webby. Shit... looks v fierce. mid life crisis... will she hav mood swing? will she vent frustrations anyhow? So i had planned to wear common colours to blend into the surroundings so if she wants to shoot anyone, she will not be able to say "the girl in yellow etc, answer this question!!!!" Black/white will be most suitable.


GEMS... choose Is Seeing Believing. Thought it is quite fun. But not until i see the notes(i copied and paste tis from the module syllabus info...

Module Aims


"This module aims to provide students with an overview about how the human eyes see and takes a brief look at the Optometry profession in their role as eyecare practitioners. Students are provided with a framework to allow them to integrate the basic scientific foundation of vision with clinical studies. A. Vision and Visual Acuity B. Refractive Errors C. Ocular Anatomy D. History of Optometry..."


Just by reading this creeps me. This is not even the notes yet. HELP... i think i will now dream of many eyeballs dropping down on me, crushing me to death and that creepy pansy sitting on top off the pile of eyeballs, laughing using her the evil and witch-sound-alike-voice.RIP(echo......................)

terrified

Had to go to my claz gathering @ Ngee Ann city Seoul Garden. But last min Tammy jie called me to help out at wisma. So i told jielong that i canut go to the outing (ok... was thinking earning $ is more fun...). but that silly jielong say my apologies were not accepted.{calling him handsome oso no use... cuz he said he dun buy that cuz he ald handsome enough...i nearly puked my dinner out} I had previously supported the gathering totally cuz i love my claz a lot!!! and sadly, we are all separating into different options.


Now the horrible part... I get a shock of my life when i get to the shop with the sucky iora uni. Tammy asked me to get changed. I had to wear a sleeveless shirt and a SKIRT... Shit man... my 4 other working companions at iora canut even force me to wear a skirt on e last day of work. But Tammy's one shot caused my death---- break my dress code rule... IT WAS A DISASTER!!! DUN BELIEVE I AM THE JIAMIN I KNEW FOR 17++ YEARS(school uniforms not inclusive)


Tammy had the intention to ask me to work again today. Buti dare not work at iora shop again. So i told him i had to go to the airport(sadly, today's Good Friday and i still had my duty) Promotion/sale fair can. but not in the shop as a sales rep. But the ONE AND ONLY thing i like is when i iron the clothes and the trainee badge.


Previously i had told jielong that i would be working at wisma. He called me at bout 1+ to ask me where i was working. But i did not hav my phone with me until i knocked off at 9. Returned the call to jielong and told him i was back working at suntec. He said i kid him that i was working and went to look for me with Ben (when i heard this, i swear i din bluff). But was thinking, if they saw me in skirt, they would hav laughed till they dropped down dead. Haiz... if i knew working at iora shop is a disaster, i would have gone to the beloved claz outing. really... seriously...

k-boxing

went k-boxing with Jas and Qiuyan on Wednesday. It was the first outing among the 3 of us(3 best friends) since our 6wks hols. It was a bit sad lah. But I enjoyed it. At first thought Qiuyan won't go. But who knows, she sang all those songs which i like!!! OMG she sure know how to choose the songs.


Next to our room, there was a group of guys. They suddenly like ki-siao, sang JJ's Cao cao till v loud. I din want to lose out to them so i immediately chose Cao cao oso. so in like 30 mins later, i sang that song. I din want we girls to lose out to guys (jin guo bu rang xu mei). so i adjusted the music and my mic vol to bout 8. Then at the top of my voice, sang Cao cao. (then realised Jas and Quiyan were covering their ears and shouting "siao" to me).


When the song ended, i even used the mic and said" wo bu hui shu gei ni men de... wo ye chang de hen bang bah!!!"


*PS: luckily there was no gang fight when we 3 girls walked out of k-box

on the job experience

Finally ended my 7 days' job with Iora. Really an eye opener for me cuz will be able to see different kinds of ppl around... ( Some lovely, some ugly____u will really get to realise that the world is not beautiful at all )
Here is a summery of the different kinds of ppl i met whom i think is interesting and left an impression on me

• was in charge of the accessories section. so have to tell ppl there was a mirror. some ppl think they are so great. told them where's the mirror ald ( i even pointed to that direction) she just ignore me. then after choosing the belts or something, turned to me and ask "where's the mirror?" i nearly boxed her tooth off... wanted to let her hav a shock of her life when she looked into the mirror.
• was eating lunch behind the accessories section. an uncle came to me and asked if we have a mens' section. it was v obvious that there issnt... i think he needs a pair of specs more
• An angmoh speaking auntie came to me... she choose a blouse with a lot of buttons and just try them on over her shirt cuz she don't want to try it in the fitting room. she buttoned the first button then said" u help me button the rest lah... i v lazy". I was kana shocked big time. Then again, told me to take off for cuz she v lazy.
• Touched by this kind of men >>>> an Indian guy was carrying his lugguage and a DHL plastic bag walking around. He was on the phone. saw him walking around, so approached him. He asked me what skirt size should a person with 28 inches waist wear. I told him M. He went to his phone and said" M dear".... He was looking for something for his wife

>>>> a Chinese man was walking around. thought he needed help. so i asked if he needed any help in English. He just smiled and waved his hands. Then i walked away. Some time later he was still there. so i went to him again. now i thought he dun understand English, so i asked him in chinese. Know wad??? he replied in ENGLISH. he was looking for something for his girlfriend. I asked him wad kind of clothes his girlfriend wears. he don't know how to describe. but i nearly laughed my heads off me when he asked me if the shop sells my uniform ( i suddenly pity his girlfriend cuz she has a boyfriend with so bad taste. IORA UNIFORM IS REAL UGLY

>>>> a guy with an ah beng look approached me and asked if we sell any S-size biz wear. I wanted to kapo so asked who is it for. He said they are for his sis. she will be working. I was really touched!!! It was v obvious that he knew nothing about ladies' wear cuz anything i recommended he bought. but yet he wanted to buy clothes for his sis. He must love his sis a lot.

• A lady in her fifties wanted to buy a black belt badly but she was too thin for the belt. so asked if we could punch a hole for her. I made trips just to convey the messages about the hole punching. boss say canut but that customer insisted she wanted the belt punched. in the end, she decided not to buy. ( can i punch her instead?)
• Ppl say that wealthy ppl are rude ppl. I think this is so true. some rich -tai tai- look -alike with thick make-up really act as if they never buy clothes i their life. The racks will shake violently when they flip the clothes. So damn scary. Can hear the racks go "tac-tac"
• Ah mahs are the friendliest. They are the easiest to serve cuz they always smile at you.

Whoever the ppl are, The ones who left the most beautiful impressions are my working companions. From strangers to becoming friends, i will never forget u all ( Meixiu aka mei nu, Cailing aka she-bang queen, huili aka TG1 : The Great one{ i puke} and juan aka gugu )

Go out together on the day we collect our pay!!! yeah!!!!

work

Today's my 4th day working as a sales assistant @ Suntec for Iora. My legs and my shoulders are aching( quote what my colleague Xiao char bor said, "do you know why my shoulders ache? cuz my hands are too heavy)


Imagine standing for 11 hrs each day? Go figures


Got to work again later... i want to type tis...but for the $$$$,i am willing to leave my com!!!

new specs soon

Went to make a new specs just now. I was determine not to get a pink frame cuz many ppl say i look like a teacher when i wear my old specs i kinda look a bit pale wif pink frames.


When i reached that shop, the optician there was busy wif 2 customers,an auntie and his son (gosh...the little boy is in kindergarten cuz wearing the blue PAP uniform. so young, and need to wear specs liao... like my father said, im real lucky to only start wearing my specs in sec 4. my response??? I replied that this meant that i really studied a lot for my Olevels... ok... nvr mind)


Since the guy was busy, he asked me to choose wad kind of frame i want. so i choose lor. But to me, all the frames look kind of similar only of different colours. So wif the colour pink off my mind, i went straight for the black or dark blue ones ( i want to try a different style-- the panda style!!!). Tried a lot, but they all look wierd on my face. I already think my face sucks. With all these specs, i think i look suckier.


When the optician finally came to me, he said in chinese," come xiao mei (little girl), i intoduce some specs that are suitable for u." Then turned to the rack behind the counter( wad the hell... first he called me xiao mei( he looks just a few years older than me), now he go one big round to tell me indirectly that i had wasted all my time just now trying out all the specs that are NOT suitable for me.


But i enjoyed this trip cuz its the first time i had to sit infront of a machine that looks like a binoculars and in the lense i saw 2 colourful ducks swimming ( i think the animation is to lure little kids to sit infront of the machine so that the optician can trace the degree. ( oh no... i enjoyed it ,so that means im still a kid, so slapped with the "xiao mei" title is no joke)


Then was told to wear a bookworm-look-alike-specs for the correct lenses. First time had to compare the sharpness between the red and green board. A real eye opener!!! So when everythings fine, the optician asked me to look outside to test the sharpness and the comfort level of the frame... only to meet eye-to-eye with a malay couple who happened to walk past the shop. They gave me the facial expression like they had just saw an alien (OMG! They must be shocked by my bookworm face)


I did not need to do all these with my previous opticial shop. Thats why i tend to feel a little giddy when i wore my previous specs. And the previous shop looks more classy than this one somemore. I swear i will nvr go to the previous opticial shop ( looks can bluff )

toursim toursim here i come

Went to the SP intranet to KPO yesterday... see if there is anything new sent to me. Then i went to the SAS to explore... When i pressed the academic tab, to my surprise, saw initials "TM". Duno what it meant at first. So go MSN ask if anyone knew. Then KC told me thats our option for yr2. So that means i'm in tourism management!!! yesh!!! im in my first choice!!! so excited cuz i heard that there are only 3 tourism classes and this course is real hot due to the up and coming IRs. My hard work paid off!!!


So from mid April, my life will be surrounded by all tourism related stuff ( my year2 course and my CYA duties ) hope i wont develop any tourism related phobias.

damn it walkman

SHIT SHIT SHIT !!! ARH ARH ARH!!! WHY MUST TIS HAPPEN TO ME? I THOUGHT I HAD HOPE BUT IT WAS A DISASTER !!!!
My walkman (my very precious) has long been spoilt since that very day i bought JJ's yi qian nian yi hou CD (ok... i admit its not e Singapore's version. Gahmen, don't charge me cuz at least i'm honest, i admitted myself...)
I was so Eng (free), so i took it out to try my luck. See if it still functioning. I took out mayday's zhi zhu ( 2nd CD which consists of i-think-should-be-hokkien songs). To my surprise, my percious walkman works!!! No words could describe how i felt at that time. It was like a miracle!!!! Then i took out my long time no listen SHE's bu xiang zhang da (This time is the official version... real one). I pressed the play button with excitement cuz finally can listen to my fav CD using my precious walkman le.
Then... SKY OVERCAST... THUNDER ROARED... THE WORDS "NO CD" SLAMED INFRONT OF MY EYES... i don't believe it... how come?
I din give up. Tried the mayday CD again. It played. I tried the other CDs i have including the FHS_CO_ CD... It din work!!!!
TO CONCLUDE, MY WALKMAN IS STILL SPOILT BUT DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY IT CAN ONLY PLAY MAYDAY'S HOKKIEN SONGS



MY CONCLUSION

• Maybe its time to start learning hokkien
• I think my walkman hated me for buying CDs that are un-Singapore-rily produced versions. So it went on a strike.

Come back to me my precious metallic blue walkman!!!!! WO HAO XIANG NIAN NI ARH!!!