i miss...

jm works in school everyday. but still, she misses school. she misses the times she can slack in the library, misses the times rushing datelines to projects with her mates almost everyday. misses the times trying her best to figure out how to do financial stuff. misses the times during study breaks to study @ her own time own target, misses the times having meetings for cca stuff...

jm is slow, she admits. she can only perform when she does things slowly. that is how her brains function and register. this is her style for the past 18 years, oh no, should be 19... she loves her style. she cant work in an area where everything is aggressive. and worse still where nobody wants to guide her along.

3.5 mths more to go till the end of her suffering. 14 more weeks? she will soon collaspe. soon. she knows it. she dun even have enough time to talk to her family. she loves her family. she dun want them to worry.

working environment affects her greatly. she hates ppl who smile and talk nicely to their own staff infront of guests and when the guests leave, they turn to their usual self, scolding ppl away.

jm worked in a manufacturing company during her vacation as an accountant cum hr person. ppl there are nice. she was happy there. her 1.5mths seemed so short to her. she enjoyed herself so much and did so well that even the hr boss said they were fortunate to have her around. till now, she still miss the ppl there.

to all who think studying is a sucky business, i can tell you something out there can be worse a million / trillion (whats greater than trillion?) times. jm knows cuz jm is doing some sucky business in a place she loves. so contradicting can that be?